Trained reaction... ENGAGE!!

I will admit, I have been awake for too many hours in a row.  I have always been one of those people who waits until the sun goes down and world is hushed before I try and start thinking through potential solutions to the unanswerable questions life brings.  And, as of late, there are simply too many things to try and think through before the mornings sunrise that I struggle to turn the brain off... and, morning always comes too soon.  

This morning, this particular morning, is different from all the rest and all I am left to say is that it astounds me to think how we can want something sooooo badly, and when it comes - how all we can do is run.  

With a few subtle differences to consider, I can not help but feel overwhelmed because it appears that this Christian band is singing my life song. 

I thought that hiding in the tall grass would make me invisible, and allow me to sit in this place of self protection, but I guess I whispered too loudly, crunched one too many blades of grass, or allowed my hearts tears to carry through the silence of the night for you have responded... and not only responded, but suggested coffee or lunch.  Not to be had 10 years from now when the hurt is washed down and the pain inside stops burning, but before you go back home in a week. 

And the running begins.  Not 100 miles an hour, but 200 miles an hour.  Yes, I know it's in the wrong direction, but what else can I do?